Renewal

New perspectives, new goals. That's the beginning of Term 3 for me. There's still the constant (and ever-growing) desire to get out of where I am at the end of the year. Marcus is right. There's just this undercurrent of envy and suspicion beneath the warm and friendly, familial atmosphere. I swear it spreads down from the staff to the students. It may not be blatantly obvious, but if you're observant enough, the signs do show.

1) Can I make it out? Considering I'm not taking my Os, I suppose I need to do well for my EOYs.

2) Can I make it out? Will they accept me?

The former's more of a personal challenge. The latter's external circumstances beyond my control.

Sis kindly went over the points needed to make it into the different streams in different schools. TJC Arts Stream: 16 points! (9 more than the Science Stream) VJC Arts Stream: 6. RJC Arts Stream: 5. Now one does wonder whether it might have been worth it to take the Os, and hopefully get into RJC and wake up later. It's much nearer to my place. Much.

Prospects of AC or SA seem decent enough.

Chemistry today was alright. I think I'm still prone to having an information overload though. It's in my head, and all the answers come at once and I just freak out and forget stuff. I'm serious! Oh well. Math tomorrow. I'm done with Differentiation. Integration's a killer. Study session with Sis over the phone later. Not sure how effective that'll be though. Hopefully Math A and Math B are combined. P&C and Probability shouldn't pose too much of a challenge. Aiming for an 80% on that paper. I have started aiming above myself now. Study hard, put in more effort (not the bare mininum needed to get a good grade), and I should go places. Speaking of places, Beale, Marc and I were discussing scholarships and all today. It's just strange. The different callings and ambitions we have, and how far we're willing to go in our studies and then there's God's Calling. Complicated issues really. One can only pray and watch.