Identity

Who am I?

Everytime I think back and reflect, there's just so many questions left unanswered,and new ones that keep surfacing. And so often I'm left in doubt - is this who I am? What was I supposed to be? What am I supposed to be now? Who am I supposed to be? (note the intricate difference)

Charlena told me that in life, we all have various self-defining moments, and I think this is one of them. I feel as if I've lost the reigns of control, and I'm just riding the tide, and hoping to cruise through it. There's this sense that I'm not in control, and other things at present are dictating my life - situations, circumstances, the like.

I think that I've quite a bit of catching up to do. I've been so caught up with life, that I forget to slow down and enjoy it. Wrote my narrative "Speed" across the holidays, and the story was so apt; it ties in so much with Crash.

But as for now, I seem to have lost myself. Maybe it's time for another process of discovery. But the irony of life is this: the more you construct an identity for yourself, the more you question - is that who I want to be? Is that who I'm meant to be?

My destiny lies in You.